Friendship and other things...

So I've had this small gang of incredibly close friends since the first day of grade 7, one of these friends being Ashley. Ashley and I have been especially close, considering we still go to the same school whereas everyone else is elsewhere. About a month ago, Ashley's boyfriend left for army training. Ashley and her boyfriend were quite inseparable. Obviously, I tried talking to her but she wouldn't have any of it.

Now it's 3 weeks in a row that she blows me off for lunch. I can't help but wonder what I did wrong... I was nothing but supportive and I made it very clear that she had a friend in me so she could talk to me if she needed it. I feel so... betrayed. How could she throw away 5 years of friendship like that? Doesn't she care...

Connor. Oh Connor. He's still in love with me and I had no idea how to deal with it. I probably could have dealt with the situation with a bit more finesse, but I digress.

Last friday was the talent show at our old high school. Having done the show every year in high school, I made several friends younger than me. I went to support them and Connor went because he's a follower and goes everywhere I go that he thinks he can get away with.

Originally I had planned on chatting with him a bit and then going on my merry way. Well, that's not how it went. I saw him and chickened out. It was bad. He saw me duck behind a particularly tall person and started harassing me with BBMs. Now here's the thing; we had had a fight and I really didn't feel like seeing his lying asshole face.

He stared at me until the show started, so much my good friend Mel's boyfriend Kevin whom I'd just met was ready to go kick his ass; he was being that creepy. After intermission, Mel&I made the mistake of going in through the wrong door - the one Connor was sitting near. He tried saying hi but I ran. My phone died, but I knew he was texting me.

After the show, he planted his ass next to the exit. Being very good with the mapping of the school, I tried another exit. He followed me and ran after me after I said I couldn't talk to him.

I got home and plugged in my phone to about 30 or so messages from him. He called me a hurtful bitch. I decided to terminate the friendship. It's for the best.

I made sure my new (and very good) friend Dillon checked his blog though, to make sure he wasn't suicidal. Cause here's the thing... After I said goodbye forever, Connor kept texting me. He even said he'd kill himself. Then he said "wow, that's low. I said I'd kill myself and you didn't give a shit."

That's when I first realized he has been manipulating me. I have a real soft spot for people that need help.. And he knows it.

Peace&Love