Steven has a new girlfriend. I know I said this is how I wanted it to be but... It hurts. Last week I saw him. He took me to my dance class. We kissed. A lot. It felt good. It felt ...right. Like that's how it's supposed to be. He said he loved me, that he always has and always will. I got scared.. I ran. Literally. I barely spoke to him after, scared of how much I actually cared about him.
I logged onto my Facebook this morning and the top story? "Steven went from being 'single' to 'in a relationship'". That's what I saw. My heart shattered. It fell out my chest, fell to the ground and shattered. I know it's not fair of me to be hurt or feel betrayed because we never ...had anything. Not after we broke up. But it hurt... I feel like I meant nothing to him.
She's beautiful. God, she's gorgeous. I was talking to Davide last night and he asked how I was coping with Steven having a new girlfriend... I don't know, it didn't really hit me. I said I wasn't sure if he did or not, I mean I obviously had my doubts. But, you know. I guess my mind was in denial...
All I want to do is cry.
I feel broken.
Peace&Love
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